today is the day I should finish all my assignments and tests, but guess what? I still have another physics assignment and need to hand in my practice and massage logs by this fri.

haix haix haix.. psych CAA test.. got 58%. So my avg for psy is prob around 60+% A far cry from my 75%. Banked so hard on health sc com to pull up my other marks, but got 9.4/15 for my presentation becos I talked too much, so 0 out of 4 marks for tt section. Then my report and assignment 2 for physio hv not been marked yet. All my marks are a far cry from what is required and got 1 more week to study for my exams..

hv to put in lots of effort to pull my marks up. but I can't seemed to do it. Getting so frustrated till I cannot concentrate. It is so easy to sit back and feel "tt's it". Why is my true self so far from my ought or ideal self? Have I reached the end of my tether?


:) today is the bday of my dear housemate Payal!! :) so cool, just saw her getting into the limo :) haha like wat my classmates say, I talk so much abt my housemates be it in presentation or in normal converstions.. Perhaps it is becos we live with each other in the same house..

this brings up another issue.. So worried for 1 of my housemate. and I found out from another housemate tt she is not feeling well.. Don't know whether to be frustrated or to be sad.. And I can't do much. Sometimes I wonder why do God give us tribulations and trials etc..

haix.. and now I am getting into the exam mode.. just had an lecture for the briefing for physio OSPE. And tmr have anatomy quiz. :( And nuts to the stupid rat in the house, I have to close my door and the stupid weather too, so darn cold..
ok enough of the frustration..


today from morning till afternoon was a sh%&y day.. was sore and not feeling well.. but at least I feel better now..

went to the city.. had fun choosing.. it has been so long since I last do tt.. then A***** left. Luckily shu yan helped me or else cannot find the bus stop. Was looking at the sat timetable for the buses, until this old lady pointed out to me. haha was tempted to argue with her cos I tot it was really sat. Then my right leg started to cramp again. So was like asking this other old lady to move a little to let me sit on the bench. haha she said something but couldn't hear. haha feel so deaf. asked her to repeat and she did for 4 times! then found out she said tt there was plenty of room so I need not thank her. 72 bus came but I saw it as 12. so now I am blind. so sat there till the next bus came. Strangely it was another 72 unless I missed the bus 75. Got on the bus and I just forgot which machine was for my multirider. So I jus stared at the different machines trying to remember which for like prob 2/3 min till the bus driver showed me which.

So the whole of today I felt like some imbecile..


wah today so rush.. hv to pay the rent.. tsk should hv tot of a speech to say to Denise abt the increment. so darn expensive this place, but need to find one tt hv roughly the same facilities.. and need one tt is near the sch.. if hv to buy a bike i dun mind as long as i do not need to rely on buses..

anyway, today is fun actually :) went to my fren's house to massage 4 pple. all in their 50s and 60s. hand sore now so it should be my technique being wrong.my thumb esp so pain!! wah liao.. now feeling the soreness on shoulders too! Wahhhhh I tot older pple cannot take pain but it turns out tt they prefer it to be even harder! haha but got free lunch :) authentic home cooked food so it is worth it :)

now feel like sleeping but I prob try to finish writing up my massage logs then go to slp..


:) generally nothing much but just happy :)

Discovered tt bathroom mate may be sharing the same building as me next semester :)and she went to the physio building too! haha so today I massaged 2 pple now left 3/4 more to go by next week :r

hmmm other than tt, just worried for exams and for another nut's health.

and now v v happy becos 2 nuts in my room studying :)


shoots... didn't noe I miss a psychology prac test at 10 am today until I saw my schedule in the evening!And when I send in my test result for the WWW webct test, it did not register my marks but I cannot go back and do it as they said I only hv 1 try! :( drat it all.. went to the 5th level to tell them, but they said I hv to do it today as tmr is fully booked. So I went in w/o any knowledge or whatsoever, and got 33% :(

And I just found out tt it is difficult to accomodate to pple. U try accomodating to one, the other gets angry. tsk.. I get the point..

anyway, today I shall attempt to do lots of revision today. exams are coming in less than 30 days!! scary..


ytd, was one of my more 'down on luck' days.. got caught in the rain, was super groggy from lack of slp, got scolded by anatomy teacher and too tired to explain properly to him. it suxs..

today the afternoon part seemed fine.. in fact v v relaxing.. was massaged on the shoulders, neck and face. but then my HSC presentation spoiled my day. didn't prepare but thankful didn't falter much.. my marks.. zero becos I exceeded the time by 2 min! So shi*^y. Didn't noe I can talk so much until my fren being discreet and all showed me a paper writing that I hv been talking for 7min. so yup plus the worst thing is tt I chose a topic tt is sensitive to my teacher. Simply wonderful.. So now just left with one more major test b4 my main exams.

Talking to gd frens always helps :) Feel so much better :) Thanks to dear bathroom mate. When I saw her and Mrs W. b4 my class, felt less stress. I welcome hugs from any gd fren k :)Always feel better after one. Once my mum come here, haha she is so going to be hugged


why do I keep on thinking abt everything? It is so frustrating. Ok I woke up early to study for anatomy quiz at 8am todat, since I slpt early but I cannot concentrate.. My mind keep on thinking that I should just give up and just go back to slp etc. keep on harping that I am not good enough to catch up with the rest of the class etc.. Feel so lazy, everybody is like planning this and that but I am like still so lost..

still trying to catch up past work..ok I at least know how to go about studying for it but stuff like my HSC presentation, physio massage logs and psy last and major test are preventing me from revising for my exams.I am not hardworking. If I'm really like this, I won't end up in such a terrible state.and pple keep on asking me to do things. It is not as though I do not want to help you, but show some effort or at least understand I can't help u all the time.

My mood keeps on swinging from tired to angry. And it is so easy for me to be really angry with small matters..For the first time ytd, keep on saying the F*** word so many times in a row. Sorry little nut, won't do it again..yup but I am scared I will blast at the wrong people one day.. ok I did nearly ytd, and I am sorry. No matter what they did, I do not think they should be yelled at or shown a black face.. But there is so much stress I am facing..I want to do so so much.. to accomplish my dreams but it seems as though I am in the wrong track..

Teach me what to do Lord


haix the same topic out again.. but at least I let it out.. now feel better, after talking to my classmates abt it..haha even my classmate can tell something was bugging me badly. but am fine now plus got a hug to make me feel better :)

anyway, today wanted to be ultra hardworking but trying to wake up at 745am to go to the sch library to study.. but guess wat? I failed miserably.. woke up at 745am but went back to slp till 1020am!! wahh had to rush to sch cos I needed to print my notes.. nuts to the printer always giving me prob.. now need to save $$ by doing it in sch.. and yup, today had to write a blog. hand itchy.. haha..

and the weather is getting super cold! was freezing on my way to sch.. worried abt being attacked by those pple, but if they do dare to do anything funny, esp with my mood being so foul becos of the exams and of cos anatomy... they r so GOINg to GET it! heck care if I get sent to hospital.. nuts to all those pple who give the rest of their race a bad name!

ok control control..


today... how to say? well my expression is like this --> :)
woke up in the morning got so many hugs from the pple i miss ytd :) so happy.. then Ap*** was here too :) Long time never see her.. And got a new kind of card and psp game!! Thanks guys so much.. MUAK MUAK

haha and my mummy mummy is so nutty.. can send a picture of the jelly she made for me :) And got 2 cakes!! haha both so yummy.. plus today I finally went to the city with my gd frens!! :) 100x Had dinner at this jap restaurant plus watched a movie!! :) so happy.. sorry must keep on repeating tt cos i am seriously v happy..and it just got better :) Got 2 pple accompanying me thru the nite :) okie i better log off :)


today I can finally catch up on my slp.. the day most of my assignments are done.. The past few days were particularly horrible, slping so few hrs, plus still cannot finish or do well. :) it was funny actually esp for today (fri), took my own sweet time to go to sch to print but actually had to hand in 1 hr early. *whew* luckily managed to brisk walk there on time.

Didn't go to the cruise after all.. Tot I would be too exhausted to go but haha now I'm up after slping from coming back from sch until now. But I think today I max will slp at 2am. I must hv looked horrible in sch for those ladies to think I was going to faint when I was trying to return my tickets..

And after I hand in my report, was pleasantly surprised by my classmates :) Esp coconuts and S**! haha held at the tavern in the evening. Everybody was so tired. of cos can see lah! all those dark eye rings and some can't even walk properly. Thanks all :)

well... actually got so many things to say in this blog, but I don't know why I can't write it out.. so I guess I shall leave it here.. Gd nite all :)


Just discovered there are so many things I don't know abt pple.. Guess I was too naive to think that things r so nice and stuff.. Sorry for sounding so cynical, but I hate being kept in the dark..esp from pple who are more than just frens. I really really hate this..It is driving me nuts. So frustrating. WHATEVER


(* _ *) Slept late the nite b4 to do report, couldn't keep awake during lecture at an ungodly hour of 8am so of cos when I saw my marks during the lab lesson at 10am, I took time to absorb marks.. Maybe becos it was an outrageously low mark, but nevertheless, it was enough to make me sit up and make me awake. Sigh, so yup, it is a very bad mark. So many crosses everywhere.. Luckily he didn't write see me or put that :( smiley on the front page of my paper. I couldn't even bear to look at my lecturer in the eye when I took the paper from me. Well, at least the good thing out of it is that I know where I gone wrong. So now just hoping now I can have the time to remedy all that. Need to jia you man !
ok but let me finish my health sc report and revising for my psy test 1st :)


I just feel so lucky today..My frens nor I got injured today. My frens is becos they went back earlier, while I escaped becos I didn't bypass tt area like I usually do on monday evenings. So thankful. Was like panicking when I heard tt news from S** while getting out of a shower. Didn't know it was so damn dangerous at that area.. WHatever the case, luckily no one got hurt. Hv to take the longer route by the main road next time when I come back for lecture. Tsk tsk..

But it makes me ponder whether are they generally like this? OR should we blame the deed or the person or the culture? Doing that research paper made me re-look the whole thing in a new perspective. Or at least prevent me from thinking they are seriously nuts. haix whatever lah, now it is safe to on the lights etc, can study I happy already :)


I just feel so lucky today..My frens nor I got injured today. My frens is becos they went back earlier, while I escaped becos I didn't bypass tt area like I usually do on monday evenings. So thankful. Was like panicking when I heard tt news from S** while getting out of a shower. Didn't know it was so damn dangerous at that area.. WHatever the case, luckily no one got hurt. Hv to take the longer route by the main road next time when I come back for lecture. Tsk tsk..

But it makes me ponder whether are they generally like this? OR should we blame the deed or the person or the culture? Doing that research paper made me re-look the whole thing in a new perspective. Or at least prevent me from thinking they are seriously nuts. haix whatever lah, now it is safe to on the lights etc, can study I happy already :)


I know it is strange. me writing 2 blogs within one day.. but I just cannot take it.. My ex-housemate is leaving to go back to Hong Kong.. Maybe becos we hv different ideology, or language barrier, but I am just not tt close to her. but when I heard tt, I really feel sad. I guess with time, if we did continue to be housemates, we would really be good frens. We have actually so much in common. Especially in our family background and thinking in some areas. Tt's why I feel I should look out for her more often. If anyone bully her or watsoever, tt person would be condemned. Haix feel so frustrated now.. she is leaving so soon. I just don't know what to say to her, if I see her on sat. And this brings out other matters too. Wat if any of my other frens hv to leave too? Esp since my course is the longest out of most of my frens? This is so Sh*&y. Ok enough of this, I need to conc on my assignment

Tk Cr H***** :(


haha yes procrastinating again.. Cannot concentrate.. Today, ok lah.. at least I read some research for my health sc com report. BUT still cannot finish doing it. I think it is still less than 3/4 of what I want to achieve. haha but the nite is still 'young', will attempt to do it for the whole of today then :)

Anyway, been itching to write this.. Must promote my hk series lah.. IT is SO SO SO nice!! Just finished watching "strike at heart"! Haha though I knew the ending, cry like nuts when Charmaine Sheh died in Joe Ma's arms.. So sad :'( She was like professing her love for him, then Shi San who was Charmaine's husband was looking on and said after she died, "can you at least shed a tear for me?" WAHH so touching..Though Shi San is ahem not that good looking, but he is so noble. Always doing everything for her. but haha I still prefer Joe Ma :) More noble, can give up his love and so loyal to the country. plus he is at least quite good looking :) :)Why can't I meet a guy like tt? So sweet and caring. There was like 1 scene, Joe kneeled the entire nite to pray for forgiveness for Charmaine :')okok Shi San also not bad. There was one part whereby he in a fit of anger threw charmaine's handkerchief up in the air, but he still could not do it and he drew out his sword so that the handkerchief can fall on it, instead of just letting it drop on the ground.

Yes and most of the fighting part are so beautiful. Can be comparable to "the stormriders"! hmm Joe Ma's spear was really cool plus Shi San's Arrow too! Charmaine's mirror thingy can't really tell, but not tt bad too. Like the fight btw Joe and Shi San. So cool. The wave effect and stuff. Like fighting with the autumn leaves in the background. The winter one not bad too. :) aiya just love this series so so much. nothing can beat "perish in the name of love" for romance, but I think how they fight and the background are the best so far for all the hk series I watched. plus they got Nnadia in this show too! Her scences were really touching too. Her first role acting evil but she is a superb actress :) Also cried buckets at the part whereby she died. She did so much for tt stupid guy but the guy like never appreciate her. oh well... Anyway, now hv another series, "canopy of love" to watch, but I can resist watching it. haha no fav actor or actress since this series is more of new comers, so can endure.

So yes, now I finally got it off my chest. I can continue doing my report :) Till then, this is Li-shan from house F, room 6. Good night


today I went to Carousel! HAHa why so happy it is becos I got 2 PSP games, which is sponsored by my mum as a gift :) haha was like laughing all the way from tt games shop to Coles. Even at Coles, was like laughing all the way :P lol got discount at this game shop becos it is second hand. plus the owner gave me a further discount of $10! WAhaha, so the total cos for both games is $100 instead of $160!! lol..*award ceremony* I must thank of cos my mummy mummy for allowing me to buy. and also to shu yan!! aka willy wonka who recommended me tt shop! haha THANK YOU all so much..

Though I was still exhausted from the nite b4 but I was able to last till 5pm. So happy.. but cannot endure so slept from 5+ to 9pm. So yesh, now v awake to study and feel less stress.. So can concentrate better :) haha so cool man!


Today was the day due for my physio assignment 2.. so peng... cannot finish doing my assignment.. Rush like nuts to do also cannot finish it. Didn't slp till 7+am and woke up at 10+am also cannot finish. So tired. But the funny part was that I literally run, with my fren, from the library to the physio buiding! It was kinda funny but I think at tt time it wasn't. At 3.55pm I was still at the library printing and it was due at 4pm!!haha so nutty.. I was like going Sh#@ sh@! while my fren go F#!$ F!@!%.

And just now watched scary movie 4!! lol really love tt series :) Esp there was this part in the movie with michael jackson! so HAHA.. so lame for the line "do u hv a bro?" wahhaha sorry jinhui :P I am just going to relax for today nite :P dun care even though hv many stuff coming up next week. OH yesh! plus the river cruise on the 19th of may!! It is like so long since I sat a boat. Hope I don't get sea sick :)
okie my spider-man 2 is calling me now. CIAO


haah today for the 1st time in my life, be it in singapore or in perth I stayed in the library until it closed. Haha so funny.. they were like announcing like we're closing in 20 min time etc at 910pm. so funny.. haha sorry laughing so much.. drinking so much coffee until now so hyper.. though the library had so few pple in the 2nd floor, it was as though it was physio nite at the library. so many of us esp those from my group were there to complete the assignment which is due tmr. haha.. oh yah, the 1st time I spend like 7+ hrs in the library!! so hardworking but still cannot finish my assignment. hahahehe, heck care for the time being. Want to do my physics hw and revision for psych prac test 1st...

I think I shall just laugh my way thru tonight.. I know I hv the company of frens :) though they are not with me :) OK START round 2 of hw! :) haha I'm so on today :)


gosh, it's 9pm already!! I came home at around 630pm and now then I am ready to start work?!?!? Wat the nuts!I think I must do stuff more quickly. SO I guess no more home cooked food but rather stuff like maggie mee. haha ok lets not get into specifics.

Haix today.. Was planning to get up nice and early to prepare for my presentation.. but cannot wake up till I hv to go to sch at 10am. Then the presentation was awful. First time I was using cards, so I was fumbling here and there. Plus I forgot to turn the page! And also the slide show. Was not used to using powerpoint since all my previous presentations here I used transparencies. So I clicked and overshot. Didn't notice so.. so.. aiya ok I shall not complain. Luckily it is 10%..

hmmm 'bathroom mate' has still not returned.. ohoh ok I must concentrate.
Yup so now I must begin my physio assignment 2!! Must finish and hand in tmr so I can concentrate on my psy prac test. :) jia you to myself man


Last night slept ultra late.. talked to my mummy mummy last nite :) yup but still slpt late after tt.
Today morning can wake up but not during lecture. Fell asleep, only woke up here and there to turn the pages. And the worst thing was tt during lab lesson, there was a quiz!! I didn’t even noe abt it. And of cos failed miserably. Don’t even know the insertion, origin, how to tell wat movements the muscle can do? *hits head on table* I think once I finish my physio assignment and presentation this week, I am so going to start revising for anatomy. And in between tt, do my health sc report and study for psy test.

I must hv a strict regime. Don’t go out to shop or to fitness first. I shall freeze my a/c for tt this thur or fri hopefully. Stay at home. Eat fast food like Maggie mee. No more hk series. Only go to supervalue for grocery and to sch. Which means literally most of the time I should be camping in my own room. I really hope I can stick to this during this period


though the day started off horribly, me being tired and all.. the day turned out quite fine after all.I think I only felt bad for the part whereby I didn't noe it was N's bday last fri until I saw her uni card today. :) It was nice eating lunch as a grp after class today and celebrating N's bday impromptu. haha always like this kind of 'togetherness' feeling.. tt's why I love my class. Eveybody is willing to help each other..haha and we even hv group hugs often too. Not tt we are lesbian or wat.. Even when we go home or whatsoever, we will hug each other when we exchange our goodbyes. It is just tt we are so close to each other.

Like on fri, we hv our physio assignment 2 due. everybody is like hey u shld use this website and all, maybe meet up on thur to go thru it together etc? The feeling is so nice :) Thank you God :) Of cos I am still worried cos I hv my presentation this wed plus next week a major major health sc com report due, but I feel better now.

Plus last nite my fren cheered me up. He said I got wonderful housemates and of cos I do think likewise. (lol this is some award ceremony) REPEAT not lesbian but I always feel better after a hug especially from A. haha It is like in singapore, I must hug my mum or sis b4 I go to slp or go out.

Oh oh I know this must sound out of place here... But I saw a baby snake today!! S's eyesight is so sharp. I myself tot it was some earthworm until I saw the slitted tongue :) so cool.. haha ok must now go and eat dinner. Till then!


It was brought to my attention ytd nite tt I was darn slow in getting things done. I am supposed to write a study that is 2000 words and below but up to now I am not even half way. My fren told me she can do a draft within one hr. Maybe because we are doing different subjects but I don't think the difference in getting things done should differ much. I feel so lazy and just.. *sigh*..So last nite I tried to finish once and for all, but I could not do so.

I don't like complaining so much, it is like so drama queen, but I am so worried for the outcome of the exams. I told 1 of my another frens ytd abt this matter, but her expression is that of disbelief. She can't even believe that I got 0 for my anatomy test. To me she is my good fren but she can't even believe wat I say. I guess.. sometimes we just hv to manage on our own and not always tell other pple how we feel and expect them to give solutions or share the burden..


today I was all ready to do my physio assignment but kept on procrastinating... been eating non-stop. Ytd nite had all those tummy ache again but today..NO :)haha so been eating since I woke up until now :) I finally could eat my chicken neck and today's batch is much better. Not half cooked like last time round *drools*

And now i'm searching for an article for physio assignment 2 tt seems to be non-existent.. So frustrating. Why must all the research be from journal articles especially from a certain year onwards?? AHHHH so stress, time is passing by so fast. Now is may, next june with all those exams!! wat to do wat to do? *runs round in circles* haha sorry my mood is really nutty today. My housemate shu yan was like commenting tt juz not long ago. I think I am reaching my insanity point soon..

ok I must finish at least half of this assignment so i can conc on my projects tmr
:(


today morning went for a disability talk as part of my health sc com. it was so darn early in the morning,at 9am. But, it was worth it. They showed various videos and even had one lady talking to us. I don't know how to write it in words, but it gives me a new perspective as to how I should view them. It is like what the lady said, we should view them not by their disability but by them as a person. It is like when I was in junior college, my sch was next to them. So they do come by to our sch to use our facilities or interact with us. I was always frightened to talk or approach them because I don't understand how to. Especially after the talk given by the lady,I don't know whether it was because it was motivational or I finally understand how they are feeling, but I feel like getting into tt field for physiotherapy.

haha sorry diverted too much, see how I fare this semester 1st.
hmm yes thinking often as usual.. but more of thinking instead of just worrying. making plans. changing plans. Need to carefully make time for my dear anatomy. but finally psychology assignment is over. Now hv to make time for physio as 2 and presentation and 2 other reports in this month b4 the big showdown in june..

oh and finally i am getting better. now can eat my choc but still can't eat a lot. so will lose weight :) so it is a gain after all.. haix if only they took my weight now for my physio as 2 :P

ok hv to log off to do assignments although it is a fri nite :(


never knew my greatest love which is food can do me harm :( Ate dinner ytd and today morning not well.. anyway better now.. So I think I better listen to frens and just take flavoured water :( I never notice it till now, but it is like everywhere I go, there is always somebody eating :'(

It happen again. I don't understand why such a small thing can blow up to be a big
thing. Different ideology or culture perhaps. I don't like giving in much but it does make me sad why friendship can be so fragile.. It takes so much to build a strong one, but it is easily 'scratched' or broken. I think I'm just being melodrama again.. must be the stupid medicine that is surpressing my diarrhoea.. But whatever the case, a gd fren is always my gd fren no matter how much has happened..


Talked to my mummy mummy ytd. Said quite a lot though it was just 1 hr. couldn't talk more becos it was already 2am. but I felt better..

Don't want to hv a defeatist attitude anymore. Trying even harder now. Except now changing tactic. Going to stop all those late nights. Eat more fruits, vitamins etc. No more panadol unless it is really bad. Stomach still bad. Think it is really food poisoning. but bought medicine so it is just a queasy feeling.

YUp I seriously don't want to go back. I will really miss.. miss some pple here.. so other then wanting to be in this field, not leting pple down, I want to PASS this nutty semester!! If it kills me I don't care..

on to other nutty stuff.. the topic is on my bathroom mate!
hmmm bathroom mate (name must be anonymous) is procrastinating on eating again. Everytime eat so late. nuts to her, no wonder why she is so skinny. So worried for her. everytime like tt. Then she never slp properly.


ytd I tried to keep awake but I can't.. So I settled to slp at around 3am for 2 hrs, but I kept waking up. I don't know how to explain, it is like i am really v v tired, but I still want to study. I think I fell into deep slumber at around 6am because it was quite bright.

I woke up around 8 plus when my fren called me. but throughout the whole time when i was studying, esp the time whereby everybody in the house was slping by then, I really really felt like giving up. I wanted to just push my bks to one corner and forget tt i even took such a subject. It is the 1st time I ever felt this way, to even think of not going to sit for the exam. I hate such defeatist kind of attitude. The last time I had tt kind of feeling was when I was playing badminton singles against this RJC girl. But this feeling was much more stronger or potent. It is like tt's it man, I'm probably 1/2 way to going back to singapore. I won't be able to be with my frens here and I'm such a letdown etc. I wanted to cry so badly but I couldn't. I think I only felt better after listening to this christian song "God will make a way". So I pushed myself to study again..

at 945am: rush to sch like nuts. almost forgot to bring lab coat.
at 10am: anatomy exam started. couldn't conc. so many questions were like hey i done this b4 or at least read thru it but why can't i recall? there were like so many questions and the more i do the more i wanted to laugh. (yes it is the borderline insanity kind of laugh) It was like bubbling.. so I started ' grinning'. Anyway, yes so the exam was a failure. Worth 20% . I seriously don't think I can pass. I Don't know how. And now i'm back at home. Forced myself to eat but can't eat much. still cannot slp though I am so tired, so writing this. hope can slp after the shower so i can prepare for the physio prac mock exam tmr and assignments..


early afternoon I met apple and suzy separately on the way back home from sch :) so nutty the both of them. Apple saw me from afar and she was like running towards me.. passerbys were like laughing.. anyway it was gd to see them after like so long :) I felt less stress from my studies.
ytd nite was awful. was feeling really stupid while trying to study anatomy. It is like wat my 'bathroom mate' said (i'm reading the same material again or studying the same 2 bones for v long) but I really cannot remember. plus I hv 3 different books tt illustrate the bones or muscles etc differently, eg in pic or actual etc. so frustrating till I cannot 'tahan', so i went to slp. or more like try to slp. ok whatever.. such a pity my neighbour didn't sing so loudly..
okok divert. so yes, must study for anatomy exam. somebody in my background now is nagging at me :) I do not want to cry over anatomy again..