today.. finally can get a gd long slp after so long..

this semester, i lost so many things. things tt were intangible.. I really try to accomodate but it's always I hv to choose btw 1 of them. I find it so hard to talk abt it.. i only managed to talk a little abt it in my cell.. Sometimes I feel like talking but then I dont feel like in the end.. everything is building up..

today was one of those days.. i want to be back in s'pore.. i cant do anything here.. worrying always takes up so much of my time. some ppl cant even do simple tasks and are so narcisst.

mid sem exams r coming up.. hope can be prepared..


this semester.. hardly got any free time at all...
church, cell,work, driving, volunteer work and the work for projects are increasing... cant even talk much to my frens in s'pore.. let alone my own housemates.. things has changed...

today.. supposed to be really happy but i dont feel it... the things i hv been working for.. i got it but some i feel it is slipping out of my hands.. e things i worked for and what is the use if the one thing tt is most impt to me is not within my control.. prob ranting becos not in the right state of mind, lack of slp? whatever.. need to slp soon


ytd, lost control... in front of so many ppl..so embarrassing.. but under control again.. maybe becos it is the time of the month again.. but it was such a sensitive issue.. never realise tt J in my cell is having the same prob but I wouldnt want to wish it on another person.. some ppl are so lucky yet they dont realise it..

today another day at work.. so tired but happy at least my time is well spent. was talking to my boss today.. She is v different from others.. she was tellling me tt i value ppl who are willing to learn even though they may be slow. and i really appreciate tt.. im a slow learner so i felt much better after hearing tt. and she talks to u like ur own mum.. even to the extent of talking abt spiritual stuff.. hope i wont let her down..

ok must do report now, if not tmr must burn midnight oil