today, the cloud over my head is getting thicker.. so many tests.. n things to worry abt.. n i still cant understand why

was thinking of ytd's sermon.. I don't think I can worship if anything bad as in seriously bad should happen. I really can't take it.. I do not want it to happen for the 2nd time.. thinking abt it is driving me crazy.. and my temper is getting worse..

arghhh, dont care, I shall go to carousel to enjoy after class


I dont know what is up with me recently. I dont like this change in me, and I only felt it so strongly today. Not only I dont feel confident, I just feel so sad.. I just want my marks to be as high as possible, I want to take this test tmr just to prove something which I myself dont know. I want things to be perfect but even if I do hv a high grade, I just feel nothing. Honestly smiling is getting so hard. I just dont know why I feel this way.. It is like the more I cling the more it get furthers away from me.. why m I feeling this way.. so confusing..


aiyo... these past few days not well spent..
but the gd part of it, got to know 3 of my housemates better :)
anyways, this is not e point of the blog... was thinking of my character.. haha yes thinking a lot as usual... had a reasonable long time with my housemates today nite.. so the best is just to let things as it were.. can't change then tt's it then.
ohoh but the thing is now as I am studying a bit of hb, was thinking tt everything is so complex.. why our body must have so many organs with diff functions etc? makes studying so difficult. but then I dont know why, I just realise the beauty behind it all today.. God make things so intricate yet how our body work as one is so wondrous. there is so much thought put into it, tt it becomes so mind boggling. It is like science and religion are interlinked for once.

ok enough of my babbling, I sound like a nerd and I know I should be slping now.. hehe nite blogger


I know I am not one tt can portray my emotions well.. I know I hv pride, which gets in my way sometimes.. I am sensitive.. I can get lost in thoughts till my jie here gets dismayed, which I am really sry abt...

But 1 thing is for sure, if u r my best fren, u always be..