getting lazy again... but going to write this last post b4 I start studying... was going to write this after the exams but since i wrote the other one.. another one wont hurt..

yes my bday~~
at 12 midnight on my bday.. there was this surprise by some of house f ppl. beach theme! as usual apple can act well by saying she got some prob with suzy.. at 1st I was suspicious but then she was explaining and her look in the face was so convincing so I was in her room till 12. plus then I didnt noe payal was at home.. so i tot they couldnt celebrate it w/o payal there..
anyways, it was really a nice display! with all the candles etc.. gonna post it on fs but hard to see the beauty of it thru the pic.. it was like so romantic with all the candles.. n the background had this yanni music with the sound of water from this little fountain tt payal got. so dreamy... ahaha and got this nice pink sweater n jeans from those nuts :)

even though I drank approx 1 bottle of smirnoff, still awake.. ya n then I opened s208's present. i received it much earlier than my bday but then u noe me lah.. I dont like to open any presents till the actual day itself. n nuts to them.. make the video so touching.. wish was there wif them celebrating my other classmates.. n the voice clip.. can recognise their voices.. haix... it just seems like such a long time ago.. wonder when I can go back.. so many changes like kenneth becoming less uncle-like.. haix..

ok 1 last one b4 i study.. my physio frens..val esp.. she is 1 fren tt i regret not talking much to..she helps me in so many ways but never ask for anything in return.. we r always busy n now we r in diff courses, but she'll always be my v gd fren. ok i diverted... yup abt physio frens... e v efficient yp was planning a surprise bday party for val but i didnt noe i was part of the surprise bit too.. but haha i dont how to explain but yes i was really surprised by the cheesecake etc.

n like now.. just looking at this photoframe given by py. thinking of my family n frens.. Thanks God for all u hv given me


again... whenever I feel threaten, whenever I feel stress, I won't fight back but succumb to it.. so lazy.. I sometimes feel this way also when things go too well... pride goes to a fall and I had tt lesson too many a time..

few days ago, it was the hk series addiction.. next it was the WoW addiction. now it is the eating and extremely lazy addiction. I myself dont know what I am trying to prove.. I set really high expectations for myself but it is only when I see a fail then I wake up for some time. I m not much of a perfectionist but I feel I want to prove something. I started writing this entry becos I just rmbred my dream this morning. I passed my food safety exam.. what a laugh actually.. not tt i want to be cynical but the more I get immersed in this happy dream the more lazy I get. I dont think God helps those who r just waiting to receive his blessings. I believe we should earn it.

It is time to stand up n face what I wanted to be all along


today, I had not enough slp, but just feel so awake. I woke up at 9am and had to stop dreaming abt going to hk. I wanted to do PSI today but then there was no more space :'( So of cos I went back to slp but could not.. So anyways tt is not the point. The most interesting part was after the lect..

I told kat I wanted to study in the library after class since I got time to spare b4 playing bmt, but she insisted I go to the tavern to relax for a while and said for just 30min. So in the end I did. When I reached there, some ppl wished me happy bday n I was surprised, becos I didnt talk abt it or state it on fs. so the 2nd thing tt was strange was tt kat reserved several tables in tav and soon many of my classmates from diff classes and even frens who r not in my course but play bmt with were there. b4 I can even guess what was happening, kat brought out this cake with sparklers :) :) 1st time got such a cake.. haha n seriously i was v stunned. nuts to all and esp kat n py.. all of them were so innocent looking. but ya, tks everybody :) 100x love u so much

n after tt, I didnt take smirnoff for once but took this slushie. damn nice n got a bit tipsy.. but still can play 2 rounds of pool with wayne as my partner.. haha for once can hit into the pockets 2x in a role. n bmt was nice too!! new ppl to play with n hahaha kat got a new person to bully --> I wont get bullied by her so much.

few days ago,I received a cd rom from s208.. hvnt watched yet becos i want to watch it on the day itself, but feel a bit scared of watching it.. 2 ppl told me not to cry.. aiyo so scared... better watch it in private. hehe hugs to all :)

will try to slp soon, but so happy.. *smile smile* tks God so much


these past few days, I just noticed that whenever I say something tt is an opinion, ppl misconstrue what I say. And even if they understand what I say, they think I am applying it to them too.. This is so frustrating.. And I dont like it if ppl hv tt way of thinking.. it creates a gap in the friendship

I dont want to voice any opinion at all and even if i do, dont expect me to say much


what is happening? my hb is like deproving.. i cant conc or focus so well.. i can plan well but i cant meet the dateline i set myself... this is so frustrating... n i had to change my date to thur. tt means i cant study much for my other subjects' tests... ARgH!!! hope i can improve my efficiency n stop dilly dallying :(


tired of being a lazy bum. going to give it my best shot now.. and stop having such low self esteem --> tks Annice :)


controlling my temper is so hard.. esp if it is a build-up.. I feel always tired nowadays and listless.. I really dont like to lose my temper... cos I know I can say really mean words that is just not nice at all... sighhh