1st day working.. tired... and really tired.. no coffee, nothing.. don't even feel like eating. Not that my job is not nice.. just tt I never travel so far and so often.

learn a lot.. got new frens :)Just hope I can catch things quickly :) and for today, maybe see Annice online (yeah shu yan won't be since she just came back) but I doubt she is free so I wish for now is tt I can slp quickly if not tmr will be even more tiring than today :(


Just came back from going out with my 2 gd frens, ron and jinhui :) Had a wonderful time, eat so many new stuff, esp the fried mars choc with ice cream. Then we got to the topic of tt guy... Yes yes I admit I wasnt too nice to him. He is a nice guy.. just not my kind of guy. I was very surprised when jinhui mentioned that I was more of looking for a guy friend..anyways enough of tt guy.

today while waiting, although I knew annice won't be coming online, I was replying an email to payal. She replies my emails very quickly and I don't. So anyways back to the topic, we were talking abt the future. She getting married and so on. Then I was thinking once again of the same topic but somehow different approach in the conversation with Annice. This future thing bothered me alot. I do think abt it alot esp when I am alone, but I think of it like in the practical way. Then along come Annice and payal who make me think of the emotional side and I seriously don't like thinking of it.. The more I think of it, the more sad I become. At least I can see Shu Yan cos we r from the same country but what of the rest? And now all of them are in their respective countries.. Feel like seeing all of them these past few days.. If only they r in singapore, then we as in the whole of curtin12, house f can go out together. I don't care if it is just watching tv.. but as long as we are together.. ok I am being melodrama.. see u all soon


Sometimes I wonder why God give us so many hurdles to jump.. I feel tired already


today at crystal's bday, I met someone whom I wished I can forget.. so many years already.. and I still can't move on.. why did this person talk to me? it is now even harder to forget... not fair..

sigh... must try to slp now, if not i miss the gathering tmr..


I really try to change but it is still not enough. I don't want it that way and neither do I want to be seen that way. I don't like people comparing me with others.

I know I am stubborn but does anybody ask why I am like tt? I want to assert my own authority once in a while to show I got my own mind. It is like a defensive stance against people who try to undermine my abilities. I never did like that feeling. you look at my expression you know I am not trying to be defiant. I am just putting on a brave front. I like to put on a careless attitude so that people won't put so much hope in me. I am stress enough already. if people think I am that way, I might as well be that way and stop trying


today other then going out to visit relatives, been staring at the com playing WOrlD of WarCraft!! haha now addicted to it after clearing all the patches ;) I reached lvl 7 and this is my 2nd day. Now I stopped playing after 4hrs.. not because I got tired but then the nutty system had to closed for maintenance.. Hope the nutty system remember where I left cos I finally found Starbreeze village! haha another quest done!

the only :( sad thing is I lost to this other player who was lvl 6! wah liao, so paiseh I lost lah! cannot be stingy anymore and must upgrade all weaponry and not rely on rage points and abilities. 1st time I like a RPG game so much, and now considering whether I should buy the expansion pack..sigh, why can't my best fren or my fellow singaporean join me?? Tired of travelling alone..

anyway... WoW rocks!! Go WARRIOR NIGHT ELVES!