today morning as in like 1/2am I was thinking abt a lot of stuff... thinking until cannot even slp when I tried to at 2am. I really don't know whether it is my fault or not... Sometimes I really try to be happy and think positively but sometimes I really can't. OR sometimes I be happy when I am really not till I don't even know whether I am truly happy. People say that happiness lies in your own hands but... I just don't know how to be.. I try hard to maintain good relationships, but I guess I always try too hard, until I meet up with disappointments. So I guess the best now, is to let things be and don't push pple.

Anyway, today had lunch with my mum's fren. It was quite an enlightening talk. Learn quite a lot like I should slp and wake up earlier etc. abt diff pple and places. so many things. I never met someone who can be frugal with his own $$ but not with other pple. Asked him a lot for studies etc. Funny thing is that it was the 1st time I ever go out with my mum's frens. Most of the time it is with my mum and sisters. And all I need to do is just smile and nod. But I don't feel anything, as in don't feel shy or whatsoever.

Yup, now going with payal, mrs wonka and frens to watch movie. Hv to go out once in while.. till then..