today... I felt like the meanest idiot fren on the whole planet... was just checking my friendster email tt I never see for I think more than 3 wks? mrs wonka was right... I should keep in contact with frens in singapore... I don't know what is happening to me... I don't feel like going out or talking to pple on msn whether they r pple i noe from singapore or aust. It is not as though I don't like them or appreciate them... I just don't know what to say... I don't know how to put it. It is like I want to forget all I hv in singapore becos it reminds me of a lot of things tt give me stress.

so can u imagine when I read a email from this gd fren of mine; tt i noe from my work in spore, saying to another gd fren of mine saying I changed, not like the one she knew last time. I felt so bad... really feel v sh****. And to top it off she said tt I only care abt my frens in aust. Now yes I do care abt frens in aust. But other than my housemates, I don't even talk much to my classmates in aust or go out with them to watch movies etc. Sh** fu**... I really feel like some evil person.

Will rectify tt from today onwards..Will check my email like friendster regularly and talk more like the 'old' lishan