had to take off the tagboard becos of some error that look suspiciously like a virus..

anyway, been thinking a lot of these days.. thinking wat i want etc.. last thur food safety class was a killer. Str away after my test I felt nothing.. just like emptyness.. was very easy to smile and look at my frens and say I won't see u next semester. But then when I was walking home. I felt the very heavy burden once again. I admit I wasn't as hardworking as last semester. But I did a lot of preparation in the beginning. I finished off my PSI tests and final exam wks b4 the actual date. Even for the other subjects like my microbio. I keep bugging my teacher to teach me and did lecture and answer qns even b4 she teach tt chpt in lect. But I can't say the same for my human bio and food safety. I tried to prepare in advance but still far behind.. And then even though I prepare so much for microbio,it is not showing in my results. Then when I tried to put in more effort for tt, my human bio is affected..

Then I started thinking of my personal life. Not working and wasting so much $ on eating. I know I have gd frens caring for me but I am so emotionally drained from studying that I need emotional reassurance like hugs.. if only my mummy mummy or sis can hug me now. Then other matters are bothering me a lot too.. I don't think I can handle it now.. I don't like to spend so much effort when there is so much uncertainty..I want sincerity but so afraid of rejection..It is just too serious too soon.

So tired... I hope I can last till late today..