I really try to change but it is still not enough. I don't want it that way and neither do I want to be seen that way. I don't like people comparing me with others.

I know I am stubborn but does anybody ask why I am like tt? I want to assert my own authority once in a while to show I got my own mind. It is like a defensive stance against people who try to undermine my abilities. I never did like that feeling. you look at my expression you know I am not trying to be defiant. I am just putting on a brave front. I like to put on a careless attitude so that people won't put so much hope in me. I am stress enough already. if people think I am that way, I might as well be that way and stop trying