today... it is so strange... I got what I wanted but then I felt as though I lost... It is such a terrible feeling.. I rather if I just lose it..

Things seem to be getting out of control... Wish I can do this wish I can do tt.. everything is so complicated.. Maybe I was thinking of this hk series, but I think it would be so nice to stay in the countryside with someone I love and we will just watch the stars or watch e sky in the evening..

anyways, lets not get into much detail.. tt is just a fairytale..
today my big sis is so nice to hear me out even though she was rushing to finish this report.. thanks!! :) I no longer feel tt bad... ahaha she forced me to say everything... but thankful she did it.. if not cannot slp. hehe anyways... will try to slp now.. nite blog :P