*drank too much coffee again*

Lately, been busy.. Keep on adding 'outside' sch stuff to my timetable.. so unlike me.. playing bmt nearly every week, going to church, cell grp and educell, n maybe work?

Still trying to get use to the above
.. to be closer to my classmates and not being anti-social by staying at home and watch tv series or pc games
.. to be much closer to God. this sudden change.. I can't think properly now to write it so nicely but it was 1 of the nites a few weeks ago..
I felt really lonely.. I was scared of ppl that I love will leave me.. Esp since I am here and I can't see them since they r in s'pore.. so scared.. It was like the time when I noticed how my mum aged so much.. At tt time, I was also worried for my units.. I badly want to do well but it just looks so daunting.. Couldnt take the stress.. so I started to read the bible.. Found comfort that God is always with me and he will see me past my troubles. For once, I really felt the presence of God. It was from then on, I started putting more faith and trust in Him. I want to understand n hv more faith and not be restrained by theories of science.
I am an introvert.. I prefer staying at home and keeping to myself. I can keep up with appearances but only for a short while.. So I tend to avoid crowds. I hope I can adjust so tt I wont feel uncomfortable..
I admire ppl who can show their love for God by jumping or lifting their hands in praise. I love God too, but I just can't do the same actions. It just feels so awkard.. I just dont know how to express it.
Also, I hope I can schedule my time better.. so I won't end up like now with no time to complete my hw..